So I am seeing now how blogging can be like a journal/diary and not just a "look at pictures of my baby" site. But now do I post an emotionally vulnerable blog? I am a little embarrassed. Should I include a picture of Emolyn so everyone is left with warm fuzzys even if I am not? Well, its up to you I guess.
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
blah- emotional vomit
I feel pretty anxious right now. I feel like everything I do is being watched and has repercussions. I feel super defensive. And I don't quite know how to fix it. I think its because I am scared. I hate this feeling. Trying to let Emolyn bring the smile back to my face and turn this frown upside down. But how does life just go on? Do other people just get over things? Like "poof" nothing ever happened? I guess I need to get better at that and spend less time sulking over things that have been done. I can't change the past. I guess thats a hard life lesson that I seem to have to keep learning. Speaking of, my dad called me on mothers day. Left a message. I haven't called him back. Don't know what to say. I think I am wise enough though to not call him when I am emotional.